Allow me to share some thoughts I’ve been having lately…


1. I’ve recently become addicted to myspace. I realize I did this all backwards- facebook, then myspace, but at any rate I have everything now and I’m a very busy and happy girl. My issue with myspace is this situation involving the “layouts”.
There are a million layouts to choose from, however here are my concerns. First off, do that many people who use myspace, really prefer layouts featuring anime (Japanese animation)? Really? I pose this question because when visiting these free layout sights I am bombarded with images of squarely shaped people with spiky hair posed on a background around words like YU-GI-oh…or whatever. I would just think that anime was a “specialty” layout, meaning there would only be a few of them, but maybe there something there I’m missing….no. No I’m not missing anything by not engaging in an obsession with anime.

2. The other day as I was parked at a stop light I noticed a large crowd of people crossing the street. I guess their work place had just let out for the day. There were light suits, dark suits, big suits, small suits, skirt suits and pants suits. All the colours of the capitalist rainbow…at any rate then there was on ray of sunshine. One man who dared to be different. Perhaps he worked with those same people but had already changed into his after work attire…perhaps he just didn’t care. Along he came in his glorious brilliance, wearing a cartoon like button up short sleeved collard shirt with flames rising up from the bottom as if to insinuate he was “on fire”. He wore dark jean cut off shorts and around his head, was it a halo? No, no, it was a set of humongous headphones, proudly blaring his tunes of choice. Bless that man. Keep on keepin’ on….


3. Shortly after this large group passed and old man (about 60) and an older woman (about 60 but for her sake, we’ll say 55) crossed the street as well, she was going one way, he was going the other. On their way, the lady must’ve noticed something about the man that she liked because she gave him the “once over”. From the top of his head to the bottom of his feet, she checked him out. Yep. And she stared at his bum as he walked away from her. That lady impressed me.



4. Today at work, I was in the bathroom, thinking about how my life has changed now that Zach Braff has added me to his list of friends on my space. I thought, well I’m only one of like 230,000. But at least I’m one. And now I get special updates. I wonder if he reads people’s profiles. I wonder if he gets bored on myspace or facebook like I do sometimes and go look up random people and read their stuff. I wonder if he stays up late and watches TV when he can’t sleep. Then I thought about how I wanted a piece of that McCain chocolate cake and I got so excited over Zach and chocolate cake that I plum forgot to watch what I was doing and then BAM! Yep you heard me, BAM! The towel dispenser fell off the wall and smacked me in the noggin. Ouch. Guess I shouldn’t be thinking about chocolate cake. No negotiating on Zach.



5. And I’ve been thinking a lot about the term narcissism. Defined as an excessive preoccupation with one’s own personal importance, or with achieving one’s own chosen goals rather than bonding with others, or with associating only with others whom one chooses. Sometimes psychologists associate narcissism with psychopathology and lack of conscience, but this need not be the case. But there may be lack of emotional empathy or bonding with others.
Narcissism is the pattern of characteristics and behaviours which involve infatuation and obsession with one's self to the exclusion of others and the egotistic and ruthless pursuit of one's gratification, dominance and ambition. In everyday use outside the field of psychology, the word generally refers to people who just are inordinately fond of themselves, without the pathological connotations.”
Right.
Aren’t we all like that? Even if we don’t admit it? I know some people think they have no confidence, but then doesn’t the self obsessions become not thinking you’re good enough? Whether obsessed with the positives or obsessed with the negatives we are all overly self concerned. Like, honestly I think everyone is narcissistic. I think it’s silly to use that as an insult against somebody. Pardon me while I rant here for a minute. But I read this comment made by the friend of one celebrity about her ex boyfriend and I think that’s the dumbest insult ever. We are all narcissistic. He probably wasn’t that bad if that’s the biggest complaint you have about him.
There. Done.

Also I've decided that I will start posting lyrics I've written on the myspace site, if you're interested.

Do yourself a favour and check out a new version of Nelly's "Hot in Herre" by jenny owen youngs and the new version of "my humps" by Alanis. Best things to happen to hip hop in a long time....

Well enough ranting for now. My check engine light is back on, after almost having my car towed by a crew of street workers- and I don’t mean the type you normally see in the North end- I mean the actually street cleaner guys.

So long web friends,
Signed,
Proud to be a narcissist