Allow me to share some thoughts I’ve been having lately…


1. I’ve recently become addicted to myspace. I realize I did this all backwards- facebook, then myspace, but at any rate I have everything now and I’m a very busy and happy girl. My issue with myspace is this situation involving the “layouts”.
There are a million layouts to choose from, however here are my concerns. First off, do that many people who use myspace, really prefer layouts featuring anime (Japanese animation)? Really? I pose this question because when visiting these free layout sights I am bombarded with images of squarely shaped people with spiky hair posed on a background around words like YU-GI-oh…or whatever. I would just think that anime was a “specialty” layout, meaning there would only be a few of them, but maybe there something there I’m missing….no. No I’m not missing anything by not engaging in an obsession with anime.

2. The other day as I was parked at a stop light I noticed a large crowd of people crossing the street. I guess their work place had just let out for the day. There were light suits, dark suits, big suits, small suits, skirt suits and pants suits. All the colours of the capitalist rainbow…at any rate then there was on ray of sunshine. One man who dared to be different. Perhaps he worked with those same people but had already changed into his after work attire…perhaps he just didn’t care. Along he came in his glorious brilliance, wearing a cartoon like button up short sleeved collard shirt with flames rising up from the bottom as if to insinuate he was “on fire”. He wore dark jean cut off shorts and around his head, was it a halo? No, no, it was a set of humongous headphones, proudly blaring his tunes of choice. Bless that man. Keep on keepin’ on….


3. Shortly after this large group passed and old man (about 60) and an older woman (about 60 but for her sake, we’ll say 55) crossed the street as well, she was going one way, he was going the other. On their way, the lady must’ve noticed something about the man that she liked because she gave him the “once over”. From the top of his head to the bottom of his feet, she checked him out. Yep. And she stared at his bum as he walked away from her. That lady impressed me.



4. Today at work, I was in the bathroom, thinking about how my life has changed now that Zach Braff has added me to his list of friends on my space. I thought, well I’m only one of like 230,000. But at least I’m one. And now I get special updates. I wonder if he reads people’s profiles. I wonder if he gets bored on myspace or facebook like I do sometimes and go look up random people and read their stuff. I wonder if he stays up late and watches TV when he can’t sleep. Then I thought about how I wanted a piece of that McCain chocolate cake and I got so excited over Zach and chocolate cake that I plum forgot to watch what I was doing and then BAM! Yep you heard me, BAM! The towel dispenser fell off the wall and smacked me in the noggin. Ouch. Guess I shouldn’t be thinking about chocolate cake. No negotiating on Zach.



5. And I’ve been thinking a lot about the term narcissism. Defined as an excessive preoccupation with one’s own personal importance, or with achieving one’s own chosen goals rather than bonding with others, or with associating only with others whom one chooses. Sometimes psychologists associate narcissism with psychopathology and lack of conscience, but this need not be the case. But there may be lack of emotional empathy or bonding with others.
Narcissism is the pattern of characteristics and behaviours which involve infatuation and obsession with one's self to the exclusion of others and the egotistic and ruthless pursuit of one's gratification, dominance and ambition. In everyday use outside the field of psychology, the word generally refers to people who just are inordinately fond of themselves, without the pathological connotations.”
Right.
Aren’t we all like that? Even if we don’t admit it? I know some people think they have no confidence, but then doesn’t the self obsessions become not thinking you’re good enough? Whether obsessed with the positives or obsessed with the negatives we are all overly self concerned. Like, honestly I think everyone is narcissistic. I think it’s silly to use that as an insult against somebody. Pardon me while I rant here for a minute. But I read this comment made by the friend of one celebrity about her ex boyfriend and I think that’s the dumbest insult ever. We are all narcissistic. He probably wasn’t that bad if that’s the biggest complaint you have about him.
There. Done.

Also I've decided that I will start posting lyrics I've written on the myspace site, if you're interested.

Do yourself a favour and check out a new version of Nelly's "Hot in Herre" by jenny owen youngs and the new version of "my humps" by Alanis. Best things to happen to hip hop in a long time....

Well enough ranting for now. My check engine light is back on, after almost having my car towed by a crew of street workers- and I don’t mean the type you normally see in the North end- I mean the actually street cleaner guys.

So long web friends,
Signed,
Proud to be a narcissist

Sometimes time passes so slow, it’s like the day or the hour or the minute is never, ever gonna end. And then there are times when time flies by so fast, you can’t even spin your head around fast enough to watch it melt away. I’m feeling confused about a lot of things. I think I’ve made SOME decisions, but I’m not “sure”.

I’m not sure what I want from my life.

There. I said it.

I’m still not sure, and I’m investigating my options for further growth and possible expansion, preferably not of the waistline variety….but of the mind. Yes. Expansion of the mind.

I’m moving home. Probably at the end of the month. I feel a lot of things about this. I feel happy to be back with my mum, and happy to sleep in until noon again without being attacked by toddlers. But these are the same reasons I’ll be sad to leave. No Maiya, no Ayda, no Hannah….and soon they’ll be gone to the Philippines and that’s even farther away. At any rate, this time in my life is coming to and end. And I can’t believe it’s already almost been one year.

I might go back to school. I don’t know for what yet, but I’ll figure it out really soon. Nursing, Music, Journalism…..not sure. But guess what? The world is my oyster!!

I’m gonna travel. I’d like to go to New York for my birthday. I’ll probably be broke when I go, but I’m going and that’s it. It’ll be fun and I’ll see a musical or 2. Yay. Plane tickets, musical tickets, and airfare. I don’t even need to eat. :)

I’m writing a screen play. I need to invest in a laptop computer though, so I can write about things all the time and be one of those nerdy people that doesn’t go out to the bars but stays home and works on their screen play…oh wait….I already am!!!
I’m not telling you what it’s about but it circles around 4 people who…well never mind….so many people read my face book that someone might steal my idea and I can’t have that cause it’s a really good one. Watch for me and Zach at Sundance. Lol.

Jaime- “Yes, lots of people read your face book but damn near nobody reads your blog….”

Lisa- *sigh*

Anywho, Just thought I’d let you all know that Zach Braff is on Leno tonight. I found this picture of him on someone’s myspace the other day. He was at a concert for Joshua Radin (one of his best friends and an awesome musician signed with Columbia Records and currently touring) I’ll insert a link for him too, www.myspace.com/joshuaradin AHYWAY, I guess he was at the show and these 2 girls sent him a drink and then he came down and thanked them (cause he’s perfect…:lol….so here is what Z-Bizzle looked like as of April 22nd, 2007.



Love it.

I hope everyone enjoyed our pics from the legislative buildings, we took them after 12:30 at night on Saturday, next time I think we’ll hit the forks and then maybe the Basillica, if there are any requests for late night photos, let me know. You can view the pictures courtesy of Jamie Jacobsen’s face book page, I was tagged in them…enjoy….

Also I’ve decided after I purchase me laptop I will get a video camera so I record the bizarre things that happen to me in my life. People would laugh. I think it’s be a good idea.

Okay back to the grind of everything.

So it’s going to be a long week and I just hope things work out with money and the car and my job and the fundraiser and everything. Eeeek.

As long as I have Z Bizzle everything is just Garden State….I mean ….great. Everything is great….

L.